So as you know, I’m not letting the lack of fall temps keep me from cooking fall foods! Today I wanted something hearty and comforting because I was licking some wounds. I very unexpectedly was let go from my new job before even finishing orientation. I’m still not really sure why. The reasons were vague and I was pretty blindsided so I wasn’t really grasping much either. I had to pack my stuff in front of HR, very by the book. Very humiliating. I sunk to a particularly low point today, trying to figure out the lesson. Because certainly there is one, right? Staci said maybe the lesson isn’t mine. But that makes me feel like I’m shirking personal responsibility. So I’m still looking for the lesson.
I Spotified some Eminem because I was in angry cleaning mode and his song Beautiful came on. “But don’t let ’em say you aint beautiful. They can get f’d, just stay true to you.” I don’t know if God would choose to speak in that way but it felt straight from Him. I felt a lot better after that. However by then I’d already started comfort food.
Homemade beefaroni! I cooked a chopped onion and garlic and added a pound of each ground sirloin and hot Italian sausage and browned them. Then a can of chiles, a can of white corn, a large can of San Marzano tomatoes, a can of great northern beans, 3 cups of beef broth and a cup of red wine. Some smoked paprika, cayenne, salt and pepper. I threw in about a cup of ditalini pasta and simmered with the lid on for about 30 minutes and then turned off the heat and left the lid on while I cleaned.
When I came back to give it a stir, the pasta had soaked up the liquid and it was beefaroni! Served it up with some garlic bread. It was spicy but delicious!
I do feel bad about the job. I was really excited about it. But I guess I wasn’t meant to be there. I hope where I’m meant to be shows up soon. And I hope it has something to do with the Texas state lottery!